Jesi and I have recently taken up weight lifting. We signed up with a personal trainer at our gym because picking up heavy things requires a multitude of steps running the gambit from easy (learning the proper form) to hard (actually getting a squat rack on leg day).
Of everything though, the hardest has been looking at myself in the mirror. Proper weight lifting requires that you look at yourself in those large mirrors mostly to ensure you have proper form, but also to make sure the person waiting for the squat rack doesn’t pull some sort of ninja move and take you out.
Since we started this weight lifting journey, at least twice a week I spend a significant amount of time staring at myself in the mirror. Studying myself. My face. My body. It seems narcissistic on some level. But it is very uncomfortable on most levels.
On a daily basis I struggle to look at myself in the mirror because I see flaws. I glance quickly in the mirror in the morning to make sure my hair is styled correctly. I look to make sure my shirt and outfit is okay. But other than that I don’t really look at myself. I look myself on a superficial level but I don’t see me. Really looking at myself, studying myself has been the hardest part of this whole process. It is most definitively growing experience, like learning how to get the stupid weight clip/lock thingys on the end of the bar.
The last six months, since my last post, has been filled with learning and new experiences. I have been training for a sprint tri happening in July. I have started weight lifting in order to increase my running talent and ability. I have had to juggle a multitude of things at work which hasn’t always been fun. I’m honestly not sure that I will manage to achieve all the goals I set out for myself at the beginning of the year, but I’m okay with that, in my brain I have reset my goals and priorities and still feel that 2018 is going to be an epic year of goals and achievements.
How are your goals going? Have they changed?
Happy Running! (or lifting or swimming or ….)
GeekyTriathlete 